3 Weeks - 15

May. 14th, 2025 11:28 am
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so rewatching Dungeons and Dragons: Honor Among Thieves, what a touching moment when Holga dies heroically having saved their world from the scourge of the creepy tattooification of the Thay -- me, I'm only for consensual tattooing -- but when Edgin is having his big moment! of realizing he could, I dunno, gee, bring his best goddamn friend in the whole wide world back to life, why is the only motivation he sees in his mind's eye touching scenes of Holga being motherly toward Kira?

Is that the only reason Holga deserves to live? Because she's so mommy to his kid? I mean, I get it, his journey is realizing he needs to be less selfish -- not choosing to bring his wife back, but rather the true mother of his daughter, blah blah blah, but wow, Holga is so much more than that, and has BEEN so much more than that throughout the film, so yeah. I hugely resented it on her behalf, because his thoughts are once again selfish -- I bring you back to life bec you are surrogate mother to my child! not because you are a human being with her own destiny and I want to see you live it.

wow, I didn't realize how pissed I was.

Holga is so awesome tho.

3 Weeks - 14

May. 13th, 2025 09:47 pm
esteefee: John and Rodney in sepiatone, back to back shooting their big guns with the caption 'Ass to Ass.' (ass2ass)
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ugh I'm bad at this social media thing! sorry I haven't had time yet to respond to all the awesome comments yesterday. it was so cool seeing into my friends' writers brains.

today I am posting a plot bunny from my own ridiculous brain:

Your OTP are dropped into a death cage match! they don't know each other, but somehow during the match they come to realize they can't possibly kill each other. it's the cutest meet death! or deathliest meet cute! What happens next??? ONLY YOU KNOW

3 Weeks - 13

May. 11th, 2025 07:26 pm
esteefee: Benton Fraser with text Onomatopoeia? Woof, bow-wow (ah2)
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Today I don't have time for a long post, as I'm working on a Narf Verse story (poor Rodney is freaking!) but that brings to mind: what to you guys do when you have the germ of a story idea? How do you grow it, flesh it out? Do you sit around drinking coffee and staring into space envisioning the scene and blocking the characters as they walk around bantering with each other? Do you free write or are you a plotter? Do you write outlines, powerpoints, spreadsheets, and 8x10 glossies with pictures and arrows and a paragraph on the back of each one? Do you lie in bed at night writing sex scenes during your happy time?

Inquiring minds wanna know!

(remember when it was okay to have an inquisitive personality? so much so it was part of an advertising slogan for E.F. Hutton and then the National Enquirer? lol)

Rodney McKay lying on his back staring up. He looks quite handsome, if worried.

3 Weeks - 12

May. 10th, 2025 08:15 pm
esteefee: john sheppard in aviators in overexposed sandy background from The Defiant One (afghanistan)
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You guyyyyyys you guys the most awesome thing has happened, and all because of [personal profile] wpadmirer, who is the coolest, sweetest person. Also, fandom makes miracles happen.

So a couple of weeks ago when we were all posting the covers of our favorite/most influential books, wpadmirer noticed all my SF and asked if I liked Haldeman, which, of course - I was planning on posting The Forever War as one of my books. For anyone not familiar, it's a military science fiction novel from the POV of a soldier who manages to survive not only a large number of engagements with the alien enemy, but because of relativity, he survives into the future of humanity by his FTL travels. But the key bit and why the book stayed with me was how much society changed over time -- so much so that being queer becomes the norm and being straight is considered "queer." In fact, the protagonist, as a staunch cishet, gets called the "old queer" -- and as a baby queer, you can bet this had a huge impact on me. To see gay people even survive into the future and be codified as normies was so beautiful. I must've read the book fifteen times before I hit college.

Anyway, I told wpadmirer I was going to post The Forever War and she told me she and her husband were dinner friends with Joe and his wife, Gay, and that she could swing getting it signed for me. Interested?

Are you kidding?

I went digging in my storage for my childhood paperback copy and when the jenga puzzle of my storage closet defeated me, I biked to Borderland Books in the Haight to purchase a new trade paperback. What a wonderful bookstore. I met the sweetest girl there who is just now discovering science fiction for the first time thanks to the Dune movie series. The store owner and I got her started on some suggestions. The stars in her eyes when she realized the treasure trove that lay before her...

I sent the pretty new trade paperback to wpa with a note to Joe about what the book had meant to me growing up. The dear, sweet man signed it and drew me a little alien:

The title page of The Forever War by Joe Haldeman, signed by Joe with an inscription and a cute drawing of an alien hanging off the title.

wpa immediately express mailed it to me, and it arrived today. I almost cried when I opened it to see what he'd written. But even more importantly, just communicating with Joe and his circle of friends and knowing we all shared this moment of connection across the years to wee little me who felt the hope that a visionary writer can provide...

That's everything.

Thanks, wpadmirer.

3 Weeks - 11

May. 9th, 2025 10:24 pm
esteefee: Pic from Joes Insta, weeJoe on a minibike and wearing white helmet turning a corner in full throttle. (minijoe)
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Tomorrow I'm taking my tax return and going shopping for a new bike! I used to love climbing the hills of SF on a road bike but those days are over thanks to my migraines; I ended up getting an e-bike to soften the post-bike headaches. And now I'm finding my hip and knee don't enjoy my swing and hop dismount. Getting old is the absolute worst, in my opinion, and someone should outlaw it along with violating due process and short selling stock before deliberately tanking the market -- oh wait.

nvm

I've been test riding ebikes for the past two days in 4 different shops and have rediscovered the joys of being a leggy girl in a market made for normally-proportioned people. I remember having to pay $2 extra for 501s with a 38" inseam; fortunately, the bike market isn't like that, and you don't have to pay extra for a L or XL frame. You just have to find a distributor that has them!

Tomorrow a shop in the Haight (Avenue Cyclery on Stanyan) is putting together this Aventon Pace 4 for me:
A gray step-through bicycle with straight handlebars and a kickstand. The frame reads Aventon in a futuristic font.
Because when I test-rode the "R" for regular frame, I looked like a clown on a circus bike with my knees by my ears. 🤡

Wish me luck!

protect public media

May. 9th, 2025 08:30 am
runpunkrun: glazed donut, text: USA (donut)
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I'm not doing politics right now, but they're coming for PBS and that's where I keep all my escapist science and history programming. I need that shit so I can sleep at night.

Protect My Public Media has a ready made letter you can send to your congress critters to urge them to support public media. All you have to do is give them your name, phone number, and address, and they'll send your letter to the appropriate critters. VERY easy. I added a line at the top of the form letter to personalize it and I was done in seconds.

3 Weeks - 10

May. 8th, 2025 07:14 pm
esteefee: small gray kitten sitting like a bully on a red rug (sitlikethis)
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A gray furfaced kitty fills the frame, her brilliant green eyes glaring askance. The background is a brilliant red rug.

it is time for snackies

Don't look at me like that. You just had dinner, you silly kit.

and yet, it is time for snacks

How do you know? Do you have an internal snack clock that goes off every ten minutes?

i know where you keep them. i can get them myself

It is illegal to dispense your own snacks! That is wrong kitty thinking!

why illegal? you do it all the time

Okay, that's enough. Here... *opens snack box* Just a few. Put those eyes away. They're killing me.

whatever you say *cronch* *cronch*

Ten Minutes Later...

A gray kitty sits on a gray ottoman leaning against two bright red pillows, staring up pleadingly with her brilliant green eyes. The background is blurred out but you can see a bright red carpet.

snacks?


runpunkrun: Dana Scully reading Jose Chung's 'From Outer Space' in the style of a poster you'd find in your school library, text: Read. (reading)
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The Elements of Baking: Making any recipe gluten-free, dairy-free, egg-free or vegan, by Katarina Cermelj:

A beautiful cookbook and an excellent reference for free-from baking. It contains a framework for adapting recipes to be gluten-free, dairy-free, egg-free, vegan, or gluten-free vegan, and explains how to mix and match if you follow more than one of these diets. It has case studies that demonstrate how Kat came up with these rules—and they are rules rather than just vibes—as well as dozens of individual recipes that fit each category.

I was a bit skeptical at first because I wasn't sure who this book was for with this wildly variable free-from approach, but I know now, it's for me, and maybe for you if you love baking and are gluten-free plus something-else-free or have friends and family with multiple or overlapping sensitivities, as I think we're likely to get the most out of it. For everyone else, I recommend checking it out of the library first. (I did check it out of the library because that's always my first stop, but I just ordered my own copy from bookshop.org to celebrate Independent Bookstore Day.)

I'm eager to try out Kat's system for adapting gluten-free recipes to be dairy-free, not just the ones in this book, but also those in her first book Baked to Perfection, which is all gluten-free, but only incidentally dairy-free. I also have the option of taking the dairy-free recipes in this book and making them gluten free, and, if I really want to get into it, I can even try the gluten-free vegan recipes because I trust Kat and if anyone can take the eggs and dairy out of a gluten-free recipe and still have it work, she can. Except for the vegan cheesecakes (yes, plural), because, I'm sorry, but at some point it stops being a cheesecake, and I think it's once you've removed the eggs and the cheese.

I want to call this impeccable, and it nearly is, expertly presented and arranged, with lots of flowcharts and gorgeous color photographs, but I don't think she spends enough time considering what it's like to have multiple food sensitivities. For instance, she almost exclusively uses dairy-free products to replace dairy products, and dairy-free products often contain ingredients people with multiple sensitivities need to avoid, such as soy or tree nuts, so they're not a universal solution. Instead, I would have liked it if she considered neutral oils as a substitute for melted butter, or shortening in place of solid butter. There is some of that, but I think she could have gone further. There's no reason why you can't use oil in a brownie instead of butter. I do it all the time, but she never mentions the possibility. But that's a me problem. I recognize that a cookbook can't be all things to all people. Still, it's a small disappointment in an otherwise fantastic book. I've made four recipes from it so far and will keep going until I run out.

Highly recommended for those of us who can't buy anything at the grocery store without thoroughly examining the ingredients, and who sadly scroll away from recipes when they include a dealbreaker. The only thing Kat's system won't work on is gluten-free breads—because gluten-free breads be crazy—but she does include recipes for several gluten-free breads, including a base recipe for a simple white bread and one for an enriched brioche. Both can be adapted into more complicated bakes if you're feeing adventurous. Or you can peruse her gluten-free bread category on her blog, which I also highly recommend. Her gluten-free breads are the best I've ever made.

Crossposted to Gluten-Free Eats.

3 Weeks - 9

May. 7th, 2025 06:40 pm
esteefee: Pic from Joes Insta, weeJoe on a minibike and wearing white helmet turning a corner in full throttle. (minijoe)
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So in the middle of so much bad stuff, some excellent things are happening in my life, in that my nephew and his wife just settled in San Francisco from their peripatetic lifestyle roaming across the US and to Mexico City and back (she's from there), and I'm soon to be a great Auntie to a wee little girl! Which means all the pent up Auntie-ness I couldn't express when my nephew was little and living in Alaska is now being expressed in crocheted booties and baby hats and tiny little sweaters. I am embracing the heteronormative Auntie role with great gusto, although I'm tempted to make her a little black and gray fuzzy alpaca hoodie so she picks up a little something of my style.

I'm just so happy to have family so close (a 20 minute e-bike ride away), and it means my brother and other nephew will start coming down country more often.

\o/

A tiny rose pink alpaca baby bootie moccasin with a little bow in the back. It's resting on a deep red pillow.
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Photograph of a landscape with added text: Angst (with a happy ending), at Fancake. Sunlight radiates out from behind a mass of dark clouds, illuminating patches of blue sky and shining down on the forested shoreline of a placid lake.

If you like your angst to have a happy ending, then [community profile] fancake is the place to be this month. And if you have any questions about this theme, or the comm, come talk to me!

3 Weeks - 8

May. 5th, 2025 10:03 pm
esteefee: Close up of Rodney looking anxious. (anxiety)
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Back to work today after a week off, and I'm finding it hard. I was supposed to be retiring at the end of June on my birthday, but obviously that won't be happening now thanks to the orange pusbag and his cronies and their strip-mining agenda. And it's not helping that my work is demanding I return to the office despite my disability. But it's hard to feel my own personal anger through the rage I feel for the other atrocities being committed right now, while life goes on as if people aren't being kidnapped and trafficked to foreign prisons, due process violated, judges arrested, food safety and environmental protections stripped, DEI protections ended, our seed vault with centuries of diverse genetic material tossed, medical research halted, USAID stopped...okay, I'll stop the diatribe because it doesn't help.

Have a kitten:

A little white and gray kitten lying on its side, pink toe beans sticking straight up in the air, little pink nose tilted questioningly. Its blue eyes stare soulfully into yours.

My IG feed is almost entirely kittens as an antidote to my despair, and I write letters and go to protests where the veteran granolas in my city congregate with their signs and their chants. I wish more young people would show up, but I think they are too disenfranchised to realize how a good protest lifts your spirits.

Hang in there, my friends. ❤️🧡💛🩵💙💜

3 Weeks - 7

May. 4th, 2025 03:30 am
esteefee: a ceramic dragon head looking goofy (dragoon)
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Sorry! I'm back. Weekend was a little zany.

So, pottery! My second love that vies with writing for joy in my life. Although crochet is now pulling up in third, I've been doing pottery almost twenty years now and will be working on mastering even a tiny corner of it for the rest of my life. The possibilities are infinite, literally. I remember thinking when I started that, for a control freak like me, it was the perfect art form, because there is simply no controlling any aspect of creation. Although, with the addition of tools like this Giffin Grip Mini, we do still try lol. (thanks, [personal profile] em_kellesvig!)

A dark brown clay bowl, upside down on a plastic trimming wheel, held in by three rubber coated clamps. The bowl has concentric rings on its sides and in its base.

Recently, I'm trying to make a set of tableware for myself, because I'm constantly giving my pots away and have kept nothing! So I'm making some plates, bowls, and mugs.

A plate with raised sides. The plate is a shimmering green with a clock-face of off-white that blends with dark orange shades so the effect is like a sunset.

more under cut )

querying the web

May. 3rd, 2025 09:26 am
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Used to be, when I was writing and couldn't decide how to phrase something, I'd plug my options into Google and see how many hits each had, in case knowing which one was more popular would help me decide. But Google no longer tells you how many hits your search has. Duck Duck Go doesn't seem to either. Does anyone know of a search engine that still does this? Please don't say Bing. (Goes, for the first time ever, to Bing.com on purpose and discovers, yes, it does tell you how many hits your search has. HOWEVER it completely ignores quote marks when searching for an exact phrase. I shall not return.)

So, a poll:

Poll #33069 new heights
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 33


Pick one:

View Answers

reaching new heights in [-ing phrase]
8 (24.2%)

reaching new heights of [-ing phrase]
25 (75.8%)



My thinking:Both work. Like "reaching new heights of ignorance" sounds right to me. But I'd be using it with an -ing phrase, and there, "in" sounds better. For example: "reaching new heights in staying up late."

3 Weeks - 6

May. 1st, 2025 05:52 pm
esteefee: Close up of Benton Fraser aiming his rifle with caption MOUNTIE ON YOUR ASS. (mountie)
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Okay, so this has been bothering me for such a long time, but when, oh WHEN is TV and streaming going to turn around on the whole grim/dark/cynical thing and realize that one of the roles media provides is escape from the concept everyone is evil and out to get you, and perhaps some of us still believe in compassion and goodness and the Right--not the white right, that is the wrong right. I'm talking the Right a mountie would maintain, especially if he were from The Territories and only came here on the trail of the killers of his father, but that's not important at this juncture, what's important is:

I am so tired of the wink, the 4th wall breakage, the nod to the lampshade and the eighteen inceptions of I know you know I know. I just want a mountie to walk into a room and turn away the kid with the gun using only the power of his words or perhaps by feeding his pet wolf doughnuts.

But I've already watched due South a hundred times so would someone else produce something like that? No zombies included?

Thanks.

Benton Fraser in his bright red uniform and mountie hat, holding out his hand as if to say, Stop.
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